#:52 why do you always have to

why do you have to be such a big influence to me?
why does things have to fall back into this situation
what happent to us?
what happen to everthing you said to me?
why do you have to always pull my days down?
.. and im the little idiot who always looks forward to seeing you for a happy day ):
yes, i have fallen into depressive mood again
quiet alot happened today.
too much for me to handle .. suprisingly

i know you dont feel the same anymore
but i'd rather be told then just being pushed away
why cant you just never change and be who you've always been
mine, someone whom i dearly love and care for? /sobs
each time you just push me away, further and further
when i just try my hardest to get rid of the wall between us
whats worth me fighting for everything you've given me
i just dont want to accept the fact that your changing
changing into someone or even something that sccares me everytime


even an angel falling into this situation cant smile
and here to question why i dont seem to be happy anymore
have you ever asked or looked back at what your doing to me?
to make me feel this way?
the funny thing is you dont even know your doing this /sigh
i really cant be bothered trying to make things better anymore
i really want to just give up on anything and everything
but .. but i know i want to hold on
you dont know how much i care and love you ):


and you leave me breathless everytime i see you?
and the thought of not being able to see you just makes me anxious
i just want to search the world to be able to find you
and have you with me
close .. it was just that glass wall between us
even if it was just me looking at you, was already more then enough
i believed that fate didnt want us to be together
when i couldnt find you anywhere
but when i did it made me smile just to see you.
and being in your arms for just that little time
leaves me still pondering .. till now


i know how i feel towards you, eventually this will go away
but comes back again, everytime i see you
i know im not the lucky girl who gets to be treated like this
even though i know im not the only one
i'll still smile for every opportunity just to be that girl for the time being
/sighs oh wells. i know your never going to read this
.. but you will and i'll get into deep shit
but but i just wanted to pour it all out

thank gosh, for someone who really does understand me (:

Goodnight blog readers,
have a lovely week end
xx