I dont want to be the one always being at the window and looking outside at that big world imagining i was there.

you spin my head right round right round .. (8)

I will not get over this picture unless I have my breakfast with hot ham and melted cheese along with Ice Coffee from Cafe Barun :) Yes, I have been craving for this long time now and would you pleaseeeee make it for me?

YAYERS! its the weeekend blooody idiots! :D though you may know that it is schoool again tomorrow. & looking at my timetable i feel as though its going to be a boring ass day - with double chem then double history and double physics D: I knowww how lameee does that sound! And Yes, I am the only asian doing History in Semester 1 :L

I mean I had Pho this morning for breakfast with Daddy this morning like an asian kiddo. & Now mum's cooking Bun Bo for lunch. How asian do i sound buddy?

Nothing much to do today except for that I have weekend work to be accomplishing .. but i mean we can do that later .. right? :D Im actually going to accompany myself with some movies.

Catch you guys later.
xo

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Here were the photos I had been given from the lovely ass Anh Vo on our little breakfast catch up on orientation day. (H) But anyway, thats really off topic because my main point today was that 'I have survived 2days of year eleven without comming late nor 'skipping school''. Dont let me get you wrong, I am no rebel and am a very good girl. Psh Thai, dont go rolling your eyes!

My classes and teachers are not too bad this year. Part from the fact I have Math Studies and Physics with Mr. Grigorive this year. Ha! How exciting aye!? NOT?! like seriously, he does not like me and i do not understand him D: Us to kidds dont mix well /fists

As much as im not excited for year eleven because i know that once school starts homework will be tagging along behind. I mean dudeeee Im one of those who leave work and assignments to the last minute even though i have nothing to do. Really im going to have to work on that buddy.

Well what is there to say since now that holidays have been officially over? No more exciting going out days. No more hitting the beach with mate? And just days with seven lessons at boring old school. This year mum has officially made me go tutoring. HA! How awesome?! :( Luckily I will be tutoring with surprisingly lots of people I know. So (Y) thumbs up for that.

Yes, only two days into year eleven and I already have homework. I guess what sucks about school the most is getting up early in the morning. And i aint no morning person. As much as i try to have my nights turn off at early times. I just lay in bed pondering about .. nothing. Talking on the phone or texting and watching movies to keep myself occupied.

Let me keep off the school subject. I mean not like you'll be most likely to get loads of them pretty sooon and along the rest of this year as I try to survive year eleven. My minds gone completely blank about any topic to be assential to blog about. I think i shall just leave you at that. I shall catch you later with a more interesting blog.

you'd never know ..

Ha! first day of year eleven. Dude - how old do i sound? Like guys dont take offensive of that but .. as a year ten i still felt immature and out there and now I say im in year eleven .. it just hits me that 'dude, second to last year - grow up!' sorta thing? But then again its' just me.

So we had orientation yesterday from 1am till 3pm. But then I had brunch with the girls at around eleven - a gooo ol' catch up after the holidays! Anh holds the photos so i'll post them up when i get uncapped and recieve them :) We then hit target for a little 'stroll' :L Which was awesome time . Xuan and her mini bike ridding :L

Anyway, so orientation ws get together in a small hall type thing and with no aircons! so it was soooooo stuffy. (Y) then had afternoon tea. Time to collect your 100 kilos book bag SARAHH :D Mann -I swear its like so heavy. I had to carry it out of Olsh and past Centrelink and FINALLLY Thai Trinh comes bolting along!

Haha, pooor him whom had to carry it all around town while i do shopping :L I saw Hieu as well which was gooood - she is sooooooo pretty nows .. prettier :D since she's always been pretty :) BAHAHA! Well credit to Thai Trinh for being there; cheeeeeeeers sweeets (H) xo.

thats for all tonight
loveeeeeeeeryou. xo

but seeing her today, made everything go all clear. Thankyou.

& It Doesn't Help When Your Not Willing To Talk

.. do you hear me?

HEY YOU!

I dont like the fact that things are changing between us .. or even the thought of things are changing between us. Your my best friend. Someone i love so damn much. & yes! you do mean that much to me. I feel so bad right now - have i once again done something im just not suppose to do? :(

Im sorry, if i've done anything to hurt you. I just want it to be like it is. Your everything of a friend to me. Life would suck without you. You were there for me when things turned down. You were there to cheer me up. You were there to help me step over the big challenges through my shitty life.

But now that it feels like i've hurt you. I've done things that I would do anything to protect you from it. I know that im not a good person - and i regret it. Im just really sorry. But i thought, i thought you understoood. I thought you felt the same way i did

I want to bring it up, but im guess im just too scared that things will permanently change .. between us?

im over your shit

Ha!Its Sarah to be head over heals crying my eyes out and be smilling and jumpy about it the next minute. :)

I mean .. IM OVER IT! yah hear that?

Im OVER THE SHIT YOU MAKE ME FEEL!

I dont care what you think anymore? After all? Your nothing more then stranger to me. What do you have the right to judge other people. Judge my, judge my family. Why should I be there and feeling down and making people whom I love worry for me .. for what you do? ..its so not worth it! I should be going out, beaching it, eating my stomach out instead of curling into a ball and bursting into tears for you! .. Someone who gives no shit about me.

He loves me, your nothing. Maybe your his most things - but right now, your no more then a bully who'd mentally threaten me. By doing that, the only shit you'd be giving is to him! to have to put up with you!

suggestion; when you feel down thump up your music HELL LOUD :)

Im sick of holding my tears and drawing that smile on face just for you! Just for the sake of everyone. Im really tired - I dont wan to give up. You mean so much to me, but im actually that tired .. i dont know what to do.


Thank you for showing me care .. :)

Hello, about last night - i just .. i just went over emotional about things i guess? I just needed to get it out of me - and really, i felt much much better when i was back in bed last night :) Cheers guys.

Just chilled with some ol' cousins i barely see anymore. We had a great time. Tony is now taller then me D: and Annie is more 'mature' according to herself. She also has a boyfriend named .. Rory. awww, not like you guys know who anyway :L

but it was good to catch with your family, i like it when im with my cousins - cause it feels best? Like i dont know. im wierd aye?

talk later. eating now

im nothing but your distraction

It feels like your never there anymore .. It feels like i cant contact you when I need it most. It feels like she's trying to take you away from me. Not letting me be with you. I feel like im on mental breakdown - but i cant tell anyone about it? I cant talk to anyone.

You actually didnt bother to call .. and when i just gave in your phone wasnt even on. Your leading me onto other people even when you dont know it. I want you to take lead .. be with me and show you really do care. Dont just say it .. put it to action.

Its hard to see you, and its hard for you to see me. Schools' starting sooon and I just have this feeling that we're never going to see each other. Dont say we will .. because i'd hate to hear something just for the sake of it and though its never going to happen.

I dislike her. If she doesnt want it to be this way - then say it! Say it to my face .. dont just take him away without a word and acting like this is the way its suppose to be. You care about him .. because he 'belongs' to you .. but your hurting me so much you just dont know it.

And You, She's someone you just cant get away from .. but do you know how much its hurting me? I'd go endless to be with you .. who gives a shit if 200$ overcapped my plan. but why dont you show me that you'd do the same .. for me? I mean, not in that way .. but show me you'd go endless just to be with me - dont just say it.

If you knew us, you'd be like 'he does .. he'd do anything'. But you dont know a shit then .. you dont know how i feel, you dont know how i want, how i see things. I feel miserable just typing all this down. But there's no one else i can say this too .. and if i dont get it down i feel like im just going to burst into tears then bursts my brain and heart out.

Ha, im crying again .. think about when i last laughed with you - how long ago was that? Or maybe im the one thats not doing enough for you?

I know, im just suppose to take it all in. Those who tell me im nothing but a distraction to you and am ruining your lifee .. im jsut suppose to listen to that and come up with big plans on how i can stop 'distracting' you. Everyone thinks for you .. does anyone think for me? Like how i'd really feel if you say that? Im still young tooo .. I'm still in school.

Ijust feel like i cant store anymore of those 'talks' i get given. I feel like its put up the 'Full' sign but no one gives a shit about it. Cause maybe after all .. its Sarah. Im tired, restless and my eyes are filled with tears so i can see a shit im typing.

I dont know how to have my 'feelings' get cared for?
.. and you'd say you'd do something
.. but you never do

I hate the way im always making the effort to communicate with you.
I hate the way im always giving in to your likes and dislikes.
I hate the way Im almost changing into the face that it scares me!
I hate the way your parents dont like me.
I hate the way I always get talked about.

geeeeee, im still young - of course i've liked, fell in love other times, had crushes, admired other people. Let me grow up!

vroooom vrooom

I had a quiet a lovely time yesterday if we dont consider the fact there was trouble shits at home. I just couldnt stand being at home so mum and I drove to semaphore with my brothers to my mothers friends house.

It was little Celina's 2nd birthday and gee, she' such a cutie little pie. We sang her a little Happy Birthday song and ate cake. Though the cake was like .. stale literally?! like dudeeeeee! exaggeration there - but it wasnt very nice & it was pineapple flavour. -/shakes head

Then we headed towards Semaphore beach and hung out for a bit but Jason didnt really like the sand there so we only stayed for a bit and headed home! Mum tooks us to Maccas' to eat dinnner and then we headed back to Semaphore for some reason! :L

Called Thai and so mum dropped by and picked him up. We all headed to Semaphore though it was night fall so we only hung around the arcade section. Had an awesome night - We bought cuppacinos and hot chocolates for the night and headed home around 10 o'clock. Dropped Thai home and we headed home and I litterally fell asleep as sooon as I hit bed :D

School starts in less then a week - and boy am I sort of excited about it :) Planning to hit Hien's house though I really wanted to go eat out at All you can eat at Watermark Glenelg but lets see how it all turns out yeah?

I'm heading out now, see you sooon - xo

smile and click!

Us ladies at Kth this year we're lucky enough to have some photos taken by some awesome lovely photographers that we're attending there. 6 of us we're choosen to perform a dance at the night concert .. in which i eager to show the video of it but both copies I had all zooomed into me - gee thanks to Kieu and Hoa -/fists

Then Lilly and I we're more lucky enough to be asked to come for some more extra photos ;) oh and Hien comming along we had the most awesome time! Even though it was more tiring just posing there and 'looking at far distance' especially in such cold air :S Though it was so fun because whatever pose we were doing - we had to make sure to keep the Ao Dai in goood condition :L which was hella hard D:

I've finally recieved the photos because my copy on the disc didnt work properly so Lilly was nice enough to send them too me -cheeers mate! :)

And thanks to photographer #1 and photographer #2 Khanh for giving us such a wonderful experience. It was filled with photgraphy camera clicks, smiles and laughter!

summmmer .. i know its abit late to say that :\

I've intended to post more blogs up for the past few days - but as i type type type, i just tend to backspace backspace backspace. I clearly just want things to be fine again, though i dont see the problem. Oh dear, this is all comming back again. Alot has happened recently, nothing as bad as it sounds.

The ups' is that i've done some catch up with friends so thats all goood. Managed to decide to finalllly hit the beach for my first time this summer with some mates! Though they all had to wait for me for a fair bit cause I decided to go on open eyes on the day D: Thanks guys! :L I did take my brother along again because I am awesome like that (H)

We just beached it til 2 when Thai and I headed back to town went shopping for abit - where we purchased this pair of necklaces I'll post up th images when i get hold of the photo from mr. thai :) I have the ' Best ' necklace and he has the ' Friends '. Haha, we've promised to wear it so he better /fists!

I feel like this is a really long posts, cause finally i've been able to type things down and get it all out and going .. and im really proud of myself. Recieved a little something from a good ol' friend the other day - a really open thought conversation. I really enjoyed it since it was a little something shared between us :) Its good to know how someone else feels about something - because unless they open up to you so yeah, thats all goood (Y)

I've also recieved the photos from the photoshoot I was able to attend at KTH and they look pretty good to me :D hehehe. i'll post them up in the next post hopefully :D

I guess, until next time. xo

i love it when you spin me right round

It is Tuesday, the 29th of twenty-ten and here i am drinking ice coffee from gloria jeans and typing up this blog post for you lovely people :) I was wayy to tired yesterday to do anyting. I had a lovely asss time yesterday catching up with two mates whom i literally never see and my dear dear Thai Trinh .. and my brother.

I met up with Thai in town to do some back to hometown shopping .. though I didn get to do much so we went to eat HJs' and went to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks with Wesley and Long. Haha, it was great then just chilled around for a bit. Shall goood cause i got to meet up with eveyone again - though Long still has my ID card because he stole it and never remembered to give it back /fists

Im still in need of a nail polish and i'd like a pearl bracelet with pretty ribbons on it :D though i did find one lovely one on the Diva site and is intending to purchase it (H)

Catch up soon
loveeeeeeeeee. xo

1.28am

I hate the fact that I have to admit that there are various feelings we feel the same way and i envy the fact that you can put it down to words about how you feel. It feels freaky in a way that what i feel - is something you can feel? This doesnt make any sense does it?

I hate the fact that it feels like we're compete-ing .. but for not prize. It feels funny that we're rushing towards the end, or .. Im rushing towards the end but theres no point. As much as i know you'll never read this, I'd like to put this down ..

All i want, is to be able to get along together. I have a feeling we'll be great friends .. but life just doesnt give us a chance to. I dont want to be looking into your life and envying what you have .. because at times I jsut realise that I've got much more then you do

So, after this .. Im going to let you go .. concentrate on my life - and you can do the same for you ..

but then i wonder, do you ever feel the same way?

Or .. even knew of my existence

The trembling deep down

That uneasy feeling inside you, that tells you like somethings wrong - but when you come to think about it .. nothing seems to be wrong. I have that feeling. A feeling that i feel in which only needs that little spark to set the whole forest on fire feeling.

The thought scares me a little, maybe a lot. I like to blame this on school. Maybe im just way too nevous for year eleven that is slowly but still approaching soon. D:

You may have noticed I've stopped numbering the blog posts - simply because I always get it wrong .. way ahead or way back and always having to come back and edit it. Im simply not going to give a shit about it and just tittle the blog post. Simple and easy aye?

Back to what I was talking about before, I have an eager to find out what it is. Whether it may lead me towards downfall or else where. Im very conscious towards the things around me. I've learnt to look at someone carefully and learnt that life isnt always on the positive side of things. .. haha, how de sound? When i try to figure something out, my little mind starts to wander all the way back :D

Im atm clearing files and shit I dont need on my computer cause NY new start? haha, thats what I always say. But anyway, enough said, i shall be heading off movie-ing nows.

See you guys sooon

when the truth reveals

HELLOOO SWEETIES :)
As from my previous blog post - today is my nineteenth month, as long as it does sound .. It feels like .. not that long? but then again, its just a Sarah thing again.

As freaky as year eleven sounds, Im actually quiet scared at the fact there's only just under two years till I actually finish highschool. Some reason, year eight moments kind of rushed into my head while i was just blanking out today. And I thought about the fact I had five years to be at Olsh. And now time just flies like crazy.

I didnt have much sleep last night cause for some reason i just didnt seem to fall asleeep =_____=" im not developing a very good habit for when school actually does start aye? HAHA! Im always getting parentals complaining about this fact. This year one of my NY is trying my best to not come late to school as much as I did last year xD
everyone: WOOOOO - I doubt thats gonna happen D:
Sarah: :\ .. We'll see? :L

Gonna go eat pho now. see you soon

HAPPY NINETEEN MONTHS BOY.

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HELLO SWEETHEARTS :) Its the end of the weeek, how lovely is that? Ha! My routine of the average school week where I'd be megaly excited cause its the weekends which means no school (H) Hey, schools nearly 'ere D: And i think i've mentioned it before that boy oh boy am i not excited for it!

It was my lovely dear ol'friend, Tinh's birthday yesterday. Happy lovely 18th sweety. I miss you like freaking hell and hope you had a lovely lovely one (^)

Right now, im just on the tip of getting capped on my internet cause im downloading too many movies D: But its all goood, i need the company on those melting days.

HEY YOU! ... I like you :)

talk sooon, movie's just finished download.
xo

VEE DANNY THAI HOA OANH LINA & KIM

1. I absolutely hate birds

2. I'd kill the shit out of you if you touched my knee =_____="

3. I'll eat and or drink anything Mango related

4. I can almost say im allergic to Make up

5. I can live without my phone .. maybe just not the net

6. I now have the urge to paint my nail Peachy coloured

7. Bite-ing peole makes my teeth feel good (H)

#;104 until next time i see you again

Ha! Im here blogging again :) How have you guys been lately hm? Adelaide weathers hella crazy- it was all like an oven outside yesterday with the temperature in the high 40's and today its like pouring rain. I dont like the rain, as romantic and lovingly it can be, it just disturbs me so much. Like today, planning to go out and it just has to rain. So here i am once again- stuck at home!

School starts in less then 2 weeks, and boy am i pretty nervous about my upcomming senior years. It was good to have that chat with my dear ol' friend Loc about his schooling years. It helped me come more relaxed about it, there's plenty of more study years for me to come along so might as well live the best out of it? How are my 2010 year 11 and 12s copeing? .. Do well guys.

Im really planning on taking back my Piano lessons again because somehow I've been missing it so much and i eager to play it again (L) but thats all just planning. Did i tell you guys that my mothers making me tutor now? See, this proves to you that im not maths genius. HA! once agian, im happy that im in my blogging mood again - just its all about random shit.

Im loving the summer season though, shorts and tee (L) there's just so much things out there i want .. Need to start making a wish list. Im loving these Sunnies though and i eager to get a pair :D

Short blog, till next time sweets

Fuck. You. Bitch

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I've been thinking of several ways to write this post. I've made five drafts already but still nothing's really making an sense with me. Though i know there's something i want to say .. I just cant seem to type it down. I just feel .. undescribable ..

#; baby fly me home with you

HELLLO THEREE :)

You may have realised that this blog is overflowing with words and pictures, photos of adoring people i seem to lovee so goddamn much but its because I havent blogged in god knows how long due to because I havent beeen in Adelaide in yonks! and I've been in Sydney all that time, but truely I missed my blogging times so much and .. i miss you guys lots and lots more!

First thing comes first, i just wanted to wish you guys the following because of my absence in these following specials days.

MERRRY CHRISTMAS

I wish everyone had a lovely time gathering together with family, friends and loved ones. I do hope everyone had a lovely time in this season and recieved adoring presents that you've wanted, if not- Well consider yourself lucky to be apart of the family in the time :) and there's always next year for more awesome presents aye yo!

I considerable love the photo below because it shows some cute meaning, but i dont feel like its covered what i want to say so meh, :D

And now, i'd like to wish you a late

HAPPY NEW YEAR

May you leave 2009 behind as a chapter in your journey and face forward to 2010 to be a more happy, wish fullfilling year. A year full of success and strength to follow. Live each day to its fullist and a happpy happpy happpy year :)

Now for those who didnt know, i spent 1 week in Sydney for my aunty's lovely ass wedding, then came home to my lovely Adelaidians for a week, then went back to the Sydneys for a week to spend Christmas with my parentals and brothers. Then i left to go to the '0910ner KTH with my lovely interstate friends whom i now miss so freaking much D:

I spent 4days at camp which i would say wasnt as great as last year, but the lovely people there all made up for it, so that was all goood (Y)

Like everyyear, we meet more people who gave KTH a try. This year I met loads of new new people. I thought the one new thing i was able to experience through this KTH was being a Model was a few hours HAHA! what is she on about you may think? but seriously, Lilly and I were luckily enough to be in the Ao Dai (which we wear for our performance) to be given photoshoots but such lovely photographers. The pictures below are like taken on the side by Hien on my dodgey camera so I cant wait to see them :)

Us little ladies in our Ao Dai which they all look sooo sooo beautiful in :)

HAHA, each year we take soo many photos that i really need to buy a bigger memory card for next year .. if i go (y) Last year i swear, we took like a kajillion photos added together by everyones cameras. This year i managed to only be able to take 609 photos :) Still goood aye?

Lets not let the blog get too long otherwise i'll bore you guys out. Until next time baby!

loveyou, xx