im over your shit

Ha!Its Sarah to be head over heals crying my eyes out and be smilling and jumpy about it the next minute. :)

I mean .. IM OVER IT! yah hear that?

Im OVER THE SHIT YOU MAKE ME FEEL!

I dont care what you think anymore? After all? Your nothing more then stranger to me. What do you have the right to judge other people. Judge my, judge my family. Why should I be there and feeling down and making people whom I love worry for me .. for what you do? ..its so not worth it! I should be going out, beaching it, eating my stomach out instead of curling into a ball and bursting into tears for you! .. Someone who gives no shit about me.

He loves me, your nothing. Maybe your his most things - but right now, your no more then a bully who'd mentally threaten me. By doing that, the only shit you'd be giving is to him! to have to put up with you!

suggestion; when you feel down thump up your music HELL LOUD :)

#;100 HAHA! my hundredth blog

Goodmorning, goddamn my mother wont let me sleep in today! thats so unfair, if you have to wake up early to take brother to daycare- doesnt mean i freaking have to wake up with you! arghh, ffs! I didnt even sleep till like 3 cause i had a night/day shower at 1am, yeah pretty crazy huhh well it was because i didnt have time in the day because i had to start packing all the shit so *sighhs! its 11.30 and havent ate breakfast so im starving like hell

I have done major blog readings lately, one blog then linking to another! So guys click on the links tab of the blogspot here and start clicking those links! I gurantee they are goodass blogs! I wanna make a pretty breakfast today so i better start getting to the kitchen. Random blog guys!

#;94 if only everything turned out to be a dream

Morning kiddos!
I actually got up rather early today :D
My asian mother went to some place in Arndale today for some christmas present collecting
and apparently there were so many asians xD
haha! stingy asians who like free things! LOL!

I dont know why, but i feel dead tired all over :(
Like my whole body is aching from head to toe
which sucks, because i'd fall asleep like this *clicks fingers* in this weather ..
but theres so much to do i just have no time

Anyone know where to get cheap harddrives?
I like absolutely need one!

Heading out now,
talk to you soooooon
x

this doesnt count as a blog

its hard to say gooodbye, and i want you backk ..

#;86 I fake my smile, just to see yours

God damn i miss you so bloody much
its not till your not here that i realise how much i need you
argghhh, this isnt coool *hmfff

Its quiet late and im still on the comp
after my late night dinnner
.. yeah for those who know i've spent more then ever eating dinner at this time of the night =="
ha! yeahh, but really I've gotten so fat over the past few weeks
and nooooooo, its not the 'fat' where some skinny as person calls themselves
.. but like im actually getting FAT =s

So this isnt coool either,
Mum and I had a change of plans
instead of just staying for christmas dinnner
we're gonna stay for a week
but we'll be staying at a 4star hotel

Yeah dayum right guys!
be happy and love life
and always know that you've got much more then what othhers have
yeah its the typical thing .. 'your lucky to be here, arara'
but mehh its something i'd like to bring up

thats about it,
just thought i'd like to blog something for you guys
you know you love me &that i love you
x

#;84 hope dangle's on a string

hey there folks :)
Its been a few days since i've last blogged
im sincerely sorry,
a lot happened that i eagerly wanted to tell you guys about

Saturday, 21st November 2009
Maths school was mehh, our class had to join Ken's classes again
so it was bludge, we just stayed in other people's classes
and just sat and talk
anddd we ate wicked sticks and smacked each other
and rah rah rah
its our last week next week and I hope Terry will be back by thennn

then at Viet schoool we had 'Sports Day'
the day was an epic failure
the games were so dodge oraganized and no one heard anything
but i swearrrr you guys should've been there
when Martin &Hoa partnered for three legg race
they hella cheated and so came first!

Sunday, 22nd November 2009
Didnt get to do much, just slept in and had a casual family dinner

Monday, 23rd Nomvember 2009
Went to school at 11 and attended the Year12 farewell assembly
then a little Work Experience thing
then a small christmas liturgy
which was pretty gooood (y)

THEN TODAYYYYY,
i had work experience todayyyy muthachuckers!

It was 8.55 and i was still on my bus
when my work starts at 9, so i thought it wasnt a very good start
but luckily the chicks awesome so i got away with it
so the whole morning, i stacked and stacked and stacked
-i swear its over 200 pieces of clothing!
then Kylie, Ann and I met up for lunch
Kylie and I only had like half an hour break
whilst Ann had like a whole freaking hour

then i got out at 2 when im suppose to really finish at 5 :)
so that was goood
and she also changed the times i start
so now i'll be starting work at 11 and finishing at 4:30 (y)

tommorrrow, i shall be going normal time
to give Hienn her black pants she's gonna need from me
and then go for a bit of shopping for the wedding dress
i'll be leaving on next Wednesday

I need to be looking for a dress, heels and a clutch purse :)
omgssh, what would be a good shop i could loook in?
araaghhh im so excited (y)

anyway i should head off
takecares, and until next time
xx

#;83 its not love until it hurts

Talk about too many blogs in one day sarah?
its currently, 2.03am on a saturday morning
and i am still up and about blogging

I just went through a whole more series of absolutely fantastic blogs
and i will link you guys to it when times comes
the image above was collect from one of many blogs i surfed through

i shall be getting to bed now
i hope you all have a lovely day today

'Goodmorning Adelaidians'

#;82 senior is full of responsibilities .. my ass

Talk about starting early?!
The year10's at my schoool were suppose to come for a compulsory day
for a little last meet you
and as my previous blog shows
i didnt end up going!

and as always when i dotn rock up to school
exicitng things happen!
cause today,

'the girls got to find out next years homeclasses'


though i was generously informed by my little mate
Us girls are in the same class next year all together
except for my other friend
anddd, my homeclass teachers are ...
'Mr G &Mrs LeGallent'

if you dont go to olsh
you will not know that mr G does not speak clear english
and Mrs LeGallent is the hardest strictest teacher ever!
she even can smell the flavour of your bubblegum
strange huhh?
but .. i guess im gonna have to live with that
because, Senior classes will not change again
so i'll have the same teacher and class mate all year around D:
.. something new Olsh came up with

thats all, i shall grab myself some foood
im starving,
until next time
xx

#;80 no one will see you behind closed dooors

The feeling how you wished to be able to understand them
the troublesom that they're going through
how you wished they'd open up to you
and let you in so you'll be able to share with them
and go through all the things they
.. just because you care

I just hope they understand that no matter in what situation
your always going to be there for them
You wan to show you care
but if you do you dont want to disturb them
as much as you want to be there you cant

do you know how muthafucking hard that is?
not only for the person but for you aswell?
open up, when you cna
and let others in .. please?

till next time
you know you love me
xx

#;77 you know you love

I havent felt this relax in such a long time
i've blogged more then i hae been today
cause now i have all the time in the world to enjoy and relax
right now im listenning to music, eating a kitkat &drinking coke
ahh, i know what a fatty eating habbit i have at the moment
but but, comee on i've just finished hardcore studying and examinning
so i can looosen up the band a little bit yeah?

I am looking forward taking on work experince next week
but am a little bit scared
I've never worked before (there's always a first in everything right?)
so fingers crossed that i'll have a lovely time
I went from an architectural place, to a coffee shop then now a retail store
and i must say i am happy with my current one

Im not really sure on whats going on with me
maybe its the stress of work
-yeah thats just an excuse
im really sorry my bad temperature
and i'd like to change,
but things just dont go the way i want it to

thats all for tonight
you know you love e
xx

#;75 as much as i love you, i do need to go

guess what everyone?
i've officially finished all my year10 exams! :)
fuck yeah (y)
for semester2's exam i think i did much much better then semester1
now all i have left is my work experience (remember to come visit me)
andddddd then im on holiday baby :D

ahhh, this years a big year for me
and by the looks of things its for almost alot of people as well
i've been through a lot and i must say out of all years
i matured the most this year
things come and things go
..something i keep i mind as i go along the journey of life
but the one most key thing i learnt is to
learn to love myself and be myself (not in the selfish way)
.. but in the way of 'im not as bad as i think'

I learnt, and realised who my friends were
and who i could trust ... and who i couldnt
i learn the side of some people i never thought existed
yeah its hard, but its only the best for you
the hardest was going through loosing the people i loved so muc
people whom i would always be there for and would do anything for
yeah, it was hard
but wipe that tear and draw on that smile sarah :)

as much as the melting weather is still going on
i havent yet had the chance to hit the bay
though i much eager to jump into that natural water (y)

lets not let this get too long
shower and icecream sounds goood (y)
catch you later my lovelies
xx

#;74 open your dooors and let me in ;)

Good'ay again folks :)

im here blogging once again

*sigh, i just wasted last saturday doing nothing

wheni have a lot lot of things to be studying for my exams

i sat my english exam requiring no study

.. ahh but thought it went well

so thats all gooood (y)

Friday was alright i guess

our english exams ended at 11 and though as much as i eager to hit town for soe bubble tea,

i had another workshop to attend at 1

so boy oh boy i stayed at school and it was like hell

talk soooon :)

#;73 As much as i tell myself to be strong, you effects make me tumble down

If you've been regulary reading my blogs you would notice that i have changed back to the originl layout
becausee .. i simply think that the other one is tooo 'eughh'?
if that make any sense to you
and if this is the first time your reading
-then i suggest you hit the 'follow' button now?

recently, i have made myself a facebook
yeahh, you are so unupdated sarahh!?
like what is this?
who in this world doesnt have a facebook by now?
well, the reason is i simpy think tht Facebook is just another Bebo
but some odd reason i just decided i should have one, for the fun of it
either way, i also recommend you to Sarah Chau Phan .. Facebook me.. now!

anyway, lets try to just make this blog not another boring old useless blog yeah?
i have quiet exciting plans for this december comming up (y)
im practically going to spend more then half of that month
going back and fourth from Adelaide to Sydney
so yayers, im excited :)

sometimes i wonder how you feel?
why put me in so much shit and then act like nothings wrong?
First i wanted things to be normal
and you gave me that,
but then you took it away
.. the minute i had hopes
you take me for granted
and expect me to be there for you
-as much as i want to give in
im telling myself not to
i dotn want to hauled into you again
fuck off and leave me alone

lets not get this too long
im hungry for some toast :)
-x

#;72 i dont want anything to do with you

i dont know,
this quote made me picture someone
but im lost towards, who the someone is ><"

just come collective images,

i dont feel like blogging, i feel like EATING :D

seeyah for now

x

#;69 i feel something .. like beach :D

goodmorning,ladies and gentlemens :)
welcome again to my own little blog!
i've had a big night last night and yeah, felt quiet proud of myself

i managed to get all my science journal updated from my (seven lessons ==)
thanks babe, you helped me so much, even if your not there
and im sorry to my guys, whom i've left for my so much homework
ahahaha! i think i feel less the pressure now that my sciences all done
(though prepare for me to complain about writing up the report)

i just wanted a little update for you guys
ps; im watching my gossip girl again
(season 2, episode 2)

have a wonderful day guys
until next time -x