Okay, emotional Sarah coming right back into typing her feeling down to words. Seriously though, this is the best way to release my stress because I actually get to honestly, write down everything I feel.

What am I doing? What are you doing Sarah? - what are you trying to do to yourself, maybe something called doing the same mistake over and over again? Is this who you really want to be? How do you not have enough will power to make yourself better, and learn from your mistake.
I don't know I don't know, but I know.

Sarah gets too emotionally attached to everything, and when everything breaks apart. then I'm fucked. over and over again.